Motivational Minute #27 - How to Reach Unknown Potential

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My hero Nick again - saviour of the day as always.

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"Sure, maybe I can't do what you can do, but I know I am reaching out for my full potential."

"If you think you've reached your full potential, you haven't. Because you still have tomorrow. There's always something new that you can learn today and tomorrow. Grow in different ways."

"What can you do now?"

"Until you learn to do your best with what you have, you will never reach your full potential."

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Still reflecting about his Motivational Minute a couple days back, about having the courage to fail. And courage being the strength that overrides all the fear to give you strength to - JUST. TRY. ANYWAY.

Real deep stuff, but strangely I feel so empowered by his simple words. Simple words that I've heard in a different context, by a different speaker, spoken differently. But when it comes from Nick's mouth, it just has this. Magic. to it. This unknown quality, this. This. ... this. um. Down to earth. Heartiness. Empathy. Poignant. I can't find the right word. It's just like bam. And then suddenly I find myself tearing up and thinking how bitchy I've been acting lately. So what if I'm not as good as my classmates? So what if I have to retake? It's not the end of the road, the light at the end of the tunnel hasn't diminished. It's just a different route there perhaps.

Really makes you think on your toes and keeps you on edge hmm... what can I do now?

Make the best of what I've got.

Have the courage to try, even though I'm afraid.

Overcome my fears, and convince myself that I can become the person I wanna be.

I have this perhaps dumb habit of not openly sharing my thanks to the people I wanna thank ... but cheers to everyone who's uplifted me and rooted for me all the way through in these dark dark days. Really owe my life to you guys.

Really, thanks from the bottom of my heart.

Epiphany of the Day #2

"Don't only practice your art.
But force your way into its secrets.
For it and knowledge can
Raise men to the Divine."

Motivational Minute #24 - Courage

My hero, Nick Vujicic.

He's been to Hong Kong a couple times now, and on one of those times I actually went to see him, with my whole family, of course. He is one of the most amazing men I have met in my life. God has really used him so much it's just incredible how much I love Nick. I even wrote my Philosophy coursework term paper using his music video, "Something More".

And tonight. After a terrible night of turmoil last night, just trying to slap myself awake from my depression, I opened up YouTube ... and Nick popped up right to my eyes.

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 "You don't need courage to win, you need courage to fail."
"You're not afraid of winning, you're afraid of failing".

"Fear doesn't go anyway, you can't suppress it ... "just have a positive attitude, don't worry about-" - NO. the fear is there, acknowledge the fear. But courage is the strength that overrides all the fear to give you the strength to - JUST. TRY. ANYWAY."

"Yeah it's hard, but ... it's okay. It's a journey of ups and downs. If you wanna live a life without limits, you need courage to try, when you're afraid".
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Courage. Is this what I'm lacking? Courage and confidence?

My head is messing with me so damn much. No, ofc not, I have courage and confidence to face my exams. But outwardly, no one can see it. Cos the things I do and the words I say to others ... create the whole impression that I'm a loser who can't face my own problems and can't find help to solve my own problems.

But ofc that's not true. I just don't like sharing my problems with others. I don't like seeking help cos I know I gotta fix my own damn problems by myself. But sometimes these worries are just too big and they just get the better of me, and I don't know how to patch 'em back right. That's when I explode and even without directly telling others ... they can see it.

So who am I, really?
Just a kid. A vulnerable lonely kid who doesn't deserve other people's care and concern. :(

Maybe I've stepped too far out of my comfort zone, too soon. And I just need to stick with what I know, the basics, get those done first, before I can brave greater heights.

I just need to have courage to fail. And once I look past that, it's gonna give me a whole new perspective on the Hell I'm going through right now. Cos it's nowhere near Hell. I have no clue, my conditions are so good compared to some others. I'm such an idiot.

Get back up. Stand tall on your feet, you know you aint gonna let nothin knock you down and make you stay down. I'm the only barrier to finding my true self, finding my own feet.

Resilience.

Courage.

Thanks Nick!

Story of My Life (One Direction -- Piano/Cello Cover) - ThePianoGuys (+p...

Incredulously beautiful.

They have got to be my favourite YouTubers of all time, TPG, from the time they officially became a group (not just the duo with Jon and Steven, but also the camera guys!!!)

I probably first started watching only because of Steven Sharp Nelson, but I grew to love everything about them - from their pure covers to mix and mashups and arrangements and collaborations and scenery and everything about them just touched my heart so deeply. :')

And on this very dreary rainy Friday where I'm still feeling a bit lost and blue, with exams still looming up ahead for another week, I rediscover my strength and spirit and inspiration here. Their music is so heartwarming and beautiful. And through their music, they're out on a mission to tell the whole world of their story of life. Life is beautiful. :')

"Life is a gift, and it offers us the privilege, opportunity, and responsibility to give something back by becoming more."

Epiphany of the Day #1

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"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Corinthians is my favourite book in the Bible. Though Psalms is absolutely beautiful, Corinthians will always have a special place in my heart. <3 

13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I will be still, and know you are God. My pillar of strength:')

lost...

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Feeling lost...

Thank the heavens for mnemonics.

As Prof Kwong says, "your intellect is much smaller than you think it is". So don't try to remember extra details. cos you wont be able to.

Damn...

Skull foramina mnemonics. For dumb ppl like me who can never remember all of the skull foramina, and please do not show a skull to us during dead OSCA and expect us to know everything about any one foramen. I will pass out.

p.s. i DID NOT draw this. obviously. i cant draw for life. cry.

say whaaaaaat! crazy impressive. though not so user friendly for me. though my notes are even more squished than this, find this a bit hard to see.

well i'm screwed.

Emissary Vein.

Study Pressure Post #2
30.04.2014 3.33am

Emissary vein.

My way of remembering it? In misery vein.

Though I am not totally in utter and despair misery, my mind is clouded.

Fear is not in my way, though it is imminent.

Ofc, ofc, don't let the fear of striking out prevent you from loving and playing the game.

Be brave. Stand strong. Have faith. You will make it. Support. Give you fire.

Words without worth, without value. Under any other circumstance they would make me tear up and discover that newfound ounce of strength safely tucked away in my heart.

But no. Saying them to myself never works.

I want to be motivated. I am driving myself. Pushing myself. Kicking, punching. Screaming. Exploding inside. Yet appearing calm on the outside.

I can do this. My endurance is enough to keep me going for weeks. (not...)

Isn't this part of my training? As a musician, as an athlete? Perseverance?

Get your head in the game.

Even if the examiners don't think you're worthy of a pass, at least you know you've egged out 500% of strength and willpower that's bursting inside you.

As I write this, I am strangely calm. I've been calm all along, just that revision seems so unproductive and inefficient and I just wish I had the same energy and motivation that drove me through my IB exams.

I. Just. Want. To. Study.

In peace.

Please.